Sometimes in life you have moments where you question yourself, question why you do what you do. You know, those moments when it seems like none of your plans are working out, and you tempted to think – maybe this was not for me, maybe I am not cut out for this?
It is in such moments that you need to have good reasons for doing what you do, for pursuing what you seek. That is the kind of person I am, I always need a north star to guide me forward, to a certain extent I am hopeless without it. Case in point – when I when to UCT to study Astrophysics, grinding those books, or being ground by them, it made one tired, and kind of drained the enthusiasm of studying it. So what I would do now and then is to remind myself about why I was putting up with that, so I go to the library, read Scientific American or Discover, pull up some biographies about famous scientists, etc…
Doing that would revive my motivation. In as much as I love science, I think it was my goal of being an Astrophysicist that made me enjoy Math and Physics as much as I did, ever since high school when I found out that was the prerequisite. So when I stopped pursuing Astrophysics (a story for another day), my marks didn’t do so well.
This – being sustained by my reasons came to mind as I was preparing images for my social posts for my company this week, I bumped across the following image that reminded me of one of the reasons I am doing what I am doing – building a software company, continually improving myself to offer the best service I can and so forth.
What’s the reason I remembered? Well personally I want to build a school, particularly for disadvantaged children, there is such neglect of young ones in our academic programs that I personally want to make any difference that I can. But yeah, that requires money, a lot of it, added to that is that this is only one of many things I hope to accomplish. Though beginning this year I plan to start smaller initiatives.
I haven’t coded much this weekend, but I do feel tired, but this photo has given me the spark I will need for the coming week. I feel good about this year, but I know a lot of work still lies ahead, so such moments that remind me about why I am doing what I’m doing are really welcome.