I find myself with an uneasy heart, wrestling between two paths, both good, but somewhat disadvantages to the other.
I would love to be able to spend, a lot more time in God’s word, every free moment basically, but at current that would mean focusing less on the company I have started and trying to establish it. The side is to use every free moment that I can to push with my business, through which I am hoping to be able to gather enough means for projects that are close to my heart. So the strait is between focus on my spiritual life, yet my heart aches that I will be confined to a job for longer; or I could spend time on the business, yet my soul has a desire to drink more from the fountain of life.
There are a number of projects that I have, which I will not delineate at this time all at this time – will mention one though. I personally love kids, I just think little people are the best people, I think I have a fore stated if I have to choose between teaching adults and teaching the young ones – the choice is clear. Personally look forward to having my own children, but I will state that I have grown to have a soft spot for adopting, ever since I visited an orphanage, when some sister was having a birthday, I have visited there again a few times, not as much as I would have hoped. But I will ever remember the day I spent some time with them on my birthday, that was a truly special day, I love using the photo I took that day as my profile pic in various places. All they need is love, and I love kids, and there are many I would love to take care of, or help take care of.
The reason I say help take care of is because, I know that I would love to be surrounded by children, but adopting all might not be feasible, particularly if I will be travelling as a missionary, moving with an army of young soldiers might prove tricky. So the thought I have is to start a childrens’ home and help at least some young people through it, might be to take some who are street children at the moment. Another thing somewhat linked is that of helping homeless people in general. Ok still have yet to plan these out properly, but as much as I know I will never be able to clear the streets of all homeless people, I will like to try. If you look at great companies – they start with audacious and seemingly impossible goals – and that is the key to their success.
At the end, back to the strait – it is something that I will have to learn to balance, for I am not content if any part suffers. And to be honest as I think there is more free time I can free up (read less tech knew) to be able to have my soul at ease knowing that I am doing something toward my larger goals, but at the same time to give it the drink it thirst for – a knowledge and understanding of the holy.