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You are not alone

I must say, looking at where my health is now compared to where it was last year this time, I am very grateful – much, very much has improved. That being said though, I must say at times it is a bit discouraging that one is still effected by health complications, even though those that remain are way better, it is still a bit discouraging at times.

My recent flaring though is entirely my fault. Sleep late Saturday (well Sunday Morning), and lack of sleep actually is really not good for my remaining condition. Having to meet someone that Sunday made it impossible to get the needed rest, and the rest of this night was not sufficient enough to offset the negative balance I was owing.

Coming back home I was thus a bit discouraged and tired; and thought to not have my even devotion and just rest. But God lead me to read some Psalms to find comfort in, and one of the motivating factors was thinking of my lil sis; I was expecting a message from her, but it would have come through during my study time when she knows I should not be receiving Whatsapps, so I might have found myself in a situation where I needed to explain why I was not having devotion this night, and yah didn’t want that happening. I want to give a good example to her about relying on the Lord even when things are though, instead of drawing away in discouragement we are to cling with trust.

As I found a Psalm to read, I was reminded of something I had read about the one of Pioneers of my church, and I was looking for it I found other words of comfort to also read.

The quote I bumped into

“The next morning I was greatly depressed in spirits. Such thoughts as these troubled me. Why was not God willing to hear our prayers and raise the child to health? Satan, ever ready with his temptations, suggested that it was because we were not right. I could think of no particular thing wherein I had grieved the Lord, yet a crushing weight seemed to be on my spirits, driving me to despair. I doubted my acceptance with God, and could not pray. I had no courage, so much as to lift my eyes to heaven. I suffered intense anguish of mind until my husband, and the family we were with, besought the Lord in my behalf. They would not yield the point until my voice was united with theirs for deliverance. It came. I began to hope, and my trembling faith grasped the promises of God,” {2SG 137.1}

The initial quote I wanted

The Lord has visited me again in great mercy. I have been greatly afflicted for a few months past. Disease has pressed me heavily. For years I have been afflicted with dropsy and disease of the heart. It has had a tendency to depress my spirits, and destroy my faith and courage. The message to the Laodiceans has not accomplished that zealous repentance with God’s people I expected to see, and my perplexity of mind has been great. Disease seemed to make continual progress upon me, and I thought I must lie down in the grave. I had no desire to live, therefore could not take hold of faith and pray for my recovery. Often when I retired to rest at night, I realized that I was in danger of losing my breath before morning. In this state I fainted at midnight. Brn. Andrews and Loughborough were sent for, and earnest petitions were offered to God in my behalf. The depression and heavy weight were lifted from my aching heart, and I was taken off in vision, and saw these things which I present before you.  {4bSG 32.1}

Now these words touched me because to a degree I have had such experiences of discouragement; but also they spoke to me because I thought – wow, such a servant of God could have such experiences, I therefore can take courage from this fact – that I am not the only one whose faith and courage has been tried by illness; I am not the only one that has at some point had no desire to live.

It is Satan’s studied aim to make people think that no one can relate to them, for then there is no example to look to for finding hope of overcoming. But the fact is “There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.”

The fact is that you are not alone, I am not alone. Whatever we may pass through in this world God knows, not only does He know it touches His heart.

So much to be done

Personally I have quite a number of ministry plans, or rather ideas floating around in my mind and they have just been growing with time, so tonight I thought let me put these down and start thinking constructively about them all (I have already started the work on a couple), so I can think of how they can work together, or the order in which to tackle them.

So I was doing some very rough calculations on what would be required to maintain one of these ideas at large scale, and the value that I got was staggering; that – to be honest – made me realize much more the need of divine guidance in going forward with these plans (I will speak about them more in due time). A statement I have heard and truly believe in is that – “only the work that is accomplished with much prayer will in the end prove successful.”
Of late, because of the couple of ideas that I have started I have been very anxious as to how I shall be able to raise funds to see them through, praying much – thinking much and pushing in lines I hope will prove worthwhile. Tonight, after praying over these matters, I find myself a bit tired, but restless at the same time. Just taking time to relax and chat, one, to a degree, feels that they could be doing something else, I don’t chat much anyway.
I think only once I manage to get these plans to a certain level of certainty will I be able to truly rest. But then again, I might not find much rest – since this is a work of faith, God may, as He at times does, bring things down to the wire before providing all that is needed – won’t be good for my anxiety levels, but if I can only have the assurance of His leading I shall be ok.

Desire the key to change

Another thought that I got from what I read was from the following.

“Faith is the beginning of all wisdom; it lies at the foundation of all knowledge. The child would never learn anything, if it did not believe what it is told. Now, that being so in physical things, why can we not be as reasonable in spiritual things?”

That is a succinct thought I should say, but there is something I would personally like to add.

The importance of believing what God says is really the difference between overcoming our weakness or ever struggling with them. If victory is not experienced – the question is how desperately do we want it? As a sermon I was listening to stated. When Jesus asked the impotent men “wilt thou be made whole?” He showed that that which stood between him and his healing was his will.

Thus it can be said “the reason why many of us never experience a change – we do not desire it with all our heart” – sadly true. How so? When Jesus told the men “rise, take up thy bed and walk.” the man set his mind to obey those words then the healing came. Now to us God comes and says – “do you want to overcome this sin?” if we say yes, then He says “rise from that sofa, switch off the TV and spend time in my word.” – instead of being obedient like the impotent men, we ignore the instructions that Jesus gives us yet still expect a change to come. (That is just one of many things God may say to us.)

So the problem is not the power of God, but our desire to experience it – we want to trust (believe) but not obey the instructions for overcoming.

I may have complicated a simple statement (hopefully the point comes across still). Let us believe with all our heart and be willing to do whatever God says, and change will come in our lives.

Faithless work

pioneer bios

So today I completed upgrades that I was doing on an app of mine, which is about the writings of the pioneers of my church – the Seventh-day Adventist church; well just need to complete the tablet design for it then I will be able to rest on the app for now.

Now I must say, that these were men that truly knew what it meant to search the Scriptures – the insights that they give sometimes though are just charmingly beautiful. That being so though I must admit neglect on my side with regards to reading their writings more than I have been doing thus far; but planning on changing that.

Tonight I was reading the thoughts on one as he gives an overview of the book of Romans and I came across something that is very interesting.

After quoting – “Whatsoever is not of faith is sin.” he proceeds to say “A sermon not preached by faith is a sin to be repented of. Much missionary work has been done by us all, that is to be repented of.”

Now to be honest I kind of laughed when I read the part “much missionary work has been done by us all, that is to be repented of.” – I think the latter spoke to me more because of me being a missionary and all. Now in some quasi manner I could agree with him, but this is one of those texts I have never really understood, so asked the Lord to help me on this one, and some thoughts then came to mind.

The thought that came was – what is faith? In short dependence upon God (dependence came first because I had seen that word earlier). So if faith is dependence on God, what then would doing something without faith imply if not depending on oneself? Self-righteousness, That emphatically can be said to be sin. For in doing missionary work without faith, one is doing missionary work in a self-righteousness manner – as though these good deeds will commend the favour of God to them.

Another implication, if one is labouring without faith – then they are labouring without having God before them. If then God is not the focus of the work, what or who is? Could it be work that is to be seen of men? For that is what the natural heart is inclined to.

The other view of faith is – taking God at His word. Now on mission work I wonder; how many of us are going at God’s bidding? Now you may think – we all are bidden, and yes I agree, but the question is – has God said you should go to Tarshish or to Nineveh? Let me explain that. Sometimes the choice of which mission to go to is not based on the needs of the people, or a strong conviction from God to go there, but rather around where are my friends going? Am I going to get to travel to some new unknown place? – the latter being my particular interest to me to be honest.

So yah that passage made me think. This is one of the reasons I shall be reading the pioneers writings more.

And at the end if we go about doing God’s work without faith, (made me even think about this very post that I type, if it is of faith?), it is vain – for we have no power to convert men, we must rely on God for such.