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When deep speaks to deep

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Wells of Experience

I think I have at times stated that poetry is one of the ways God speaks to me, and its not just in the moment of writing, but even years later. Just read a poem I wrote some time back entitled Be still and know; I must say it was one that spoke to me this evening.

A reason why I am still touched by poems I wrote long back is because the feelings therein expressed are such that I still face later on in life. I guess that is how things are in general, it is hard to seek to bring comfort to a family that has lost their loved one, when you don’t know what such an experience is like. Yes one may sympathize, but sometimes only one that has walked the mile of the struggle can truly empathize and find the best words to bring comfort.

The deep feelings of past trials can understand the deep feelings ones experience in that moment. I remember a sister once remarking how cold sometimes brethren seem to be in speaking or dealing with, what are the weaknesses of others. Sometimes it truly is a matter of experience, when you know what it is like to be down and out, and seeking for mercy, you will later or at least should be, more open to exercising mercy toward others.

Mercy not Judgment

On the issue of sin. Does that mean to play down the sinfulness of sin? No, but the story of the woman caught in adultery is illustrative. Two parties are about the woman, both believe adultery is sin, and should not be practiced, both admit to the woman’s guilt, but both don’t act alike to the situation. One group is ready to condemn and dismiss her as a lost cause, the other looks with mercy and hope upon the woman, knowing the deep underlying reasons to her conduct, and knowing that truly there is in the heart a desire for something more, something more than the life circumstance may have led her to.

We know the conclusion, not merely “neither do I condemn thee, go and sin no more” – but the powerful woman of God that she became, “Wheresoever this gospel shall be preached in the whole world, there shall also this, that this woman hath done, be told for a memorial of her.”

Another example I think of is John Mark, a young man passionate for the work of God, but when he met trials and terrors in the way he turned back. Later when he desired again to join Barnabas and Paul, Paul sternly refused – being unforgiving of the young man’s prior mistake, but Barnabas took him under his wings, and what was the result of that? Well the young man grew to be a true asset in the work of God, that Paul himself even said “11 Only Luke is with me. Take Mark, and bring him with thee: for he is profitable to me for the ministry.” 2Timothy 4:11

Both these cases show the potential that lies within people, question is who is willing to see the diamond in the rough? Not an easy thing, but were we to learn seek to look deeper, we might realize that the sins of others should not call forth our strong rebukes, but mercy and love. As children sometimes do bad things just to get their parents attention, sometimes one whom we may think to be a rebel is really a soul crying “can anybody hear me”.

Note to self – there is life outside of coding

“Note to self – I need to get a life.” – I remember once stating that on Facebook; if I have to examine my life from when I said that compared to now – I think it holds more weight now.

I have been trying of late to push with some few projects I wanted to complete coding, or improving, after which I would give myself time to relax and time to pursue other interests – like adding more books my reading list or studying Physics (ok sure not exactly what people have in mind when talking about getting a life, but for me at least it would be adding something different from programming).

Though to be honest I don’t even know what getting a life means, just know this thing of wanting to be incessantly coding – only real break being on Sabbath – is not good. Actually in the taxi today I was with a father from my street, and he mentioned how he likes to go see friends and just talk, as a means of removing stress. Though I have been thinking about it, it just made me see more clearly how much my life is taken up by code.

Yes I am working toward a goal, an objective I often feel needs much more work, but I must admit – that a break is needed. Only time I would have a “break” was when my health (energy levels), would only allow me a few minutes of coding a day. Plus it has not proved that good for inter-personal relationships, except for a few individuals – I hardly communicate with people. My friend base has gone down, not solely due to coding, but partly; to be honest, except for a few people, I would rather spend my free time coding.

I know it might sound terrible, but its true. I was thinking of trying to go a week where the last bit of coding I do is at work, and solely for work – and it sits uncomfortably with me – but I think it will be a good experiment to try.

Also my friend at work has been telling me to go out of my comfort zone, I think I shall finally really listen to his advice, naturally I am more interested in thinking about the problem of the above image then work through the complexities of relationships; but one day – hopefully – I shall learn to become more willing to work on the latter.

JESUS DRAW ME EVER NEARER

Some hymns, just really speak to one. Was reminded on this, and O that is my prayer.
Jesus draw me ever nearer

As I labour through the storm.
You have called me to this passage,
and I’ll follow, though I’m worn.

May this journey bring a blessing,
May I rise on wings of faith;
And at the end of my heart’s testing,
With Your likeness let me wake.

Jesus guide me through the tempest;
Keep my spirit staid and sure.
When the midnight meets the morning,
Let me love You even more.

Let the treasures of the trial
Form within me as I go –
And at the end of this long passage,
Let me leave them at Your throne.