And we are done! Well, at least for now. Finally wrapped up and launched the website that I have been working on for quite a while, the completion though I must say has been a bit of mixed emotions; on one hand I am definitely glad that I am done, less stress and more time to catch up on things I’ve neglected, people I’ve neglected. On the other hand, this marks not the end, but the beginning of the journey, now another form of hard work starts, getting people to use it, that is going to be a slow drawn out processes, but looking forward to it.
As I may have stated before, finishing this website was something that was like an itch that I just had to scratch, but through the process I learnt some key lessons for going forward.
If its worthwhile, its worth the risk
As Elon Musk, a man I respect for his daring and innovation puts it – “if something is important enough, even if the odds are against you, you should still do it.”
That is something important to note because as humans we can be very risk averse. For me what was/is the risk? I spend all this time and energy, many late nights, many moments having to push my body when it didn’t feel up to the task, especially the last few weeks of the work; imagine, after all that, then people don’t like the website and don’t use it? For me that would be hard.
But at the end, the importance of the work is what compelled me forward, even if this ends up as an embarrassment – it is ok, it was worth the try.
Despise not the day of small beginnings
That is what I ended up reminding myself near the end. The last few days before launching, I was kind of dealing with anxiety, because I felt the website was not what it could be; I can be the most critical person of my work, I know my abilities, so when I feel I haven’t utilized them properly, I can be very critical on myself.
But in life we cannot expect to go zero to world class overnight, so its just the beginning, more is still to come, really excited about what is to come.
Quiet moments are needed
All who are under the training of God need the quiet hour for communion with their own hearts, with nature, and with God. In them is to be revealed a life that is not in harmony with the world, its customs, or its practices; and they need to have a personal experience in obtaining a knowledge of the will of God. We must individually hear Him speaking to the heart. When every other voice is hushed, and in quietness we wait before Him, the silence of the soul makes more distinct the voice of God. He bids us, “Be still, and know that I am God.” This is the effectual preparation for all labor for God. Amidst the hurrying throng, and the strain of life’s intense activities, he who is thus refreshed, will be surrounded with an atmosphere of light and peace. He will receive a new endowment of both physical and mental strength. His life will breathe out a fragrance, and will reveal a divine power that will reach men’s hearts.–The Ministry of Healing, p. 58.
In the rush of it all, neglecting that silent communion I saw is truly not wise, beside the spiritual refreshment and power one neglects, one fails to receive counsel that God desires to give concerning the work and how it should be carried forward. In those moments of sweet communion with God, are the moments that this work became clearer to the mind. That is not of the things I appreciate now with being done, to spend worthwhile moments in communion with my God, without the anxiety of wanting to finish the work I was doing.
Time is short
Sometimes when I think about the work that needs to be done and how little is being done, when I think about the souls that will end up being lost because the Church has neglected its duty, when I think of such I just want to cry to be honest. That is one of the source fuels for what drives me, I can’t, I won’t sit still while there is work to be done, while there are souls to be saved. I personally, feel frustrated that I am not able to do more, but I am seeking to use that which is at hand to do as much as possible.
In as much as time is short, we dealing the return of Jesus by our conformity to the status quo, drastic changes need to be made to take hold of current opportunities that may not be available tomorrow.